Resolve.. not just a household cleaner

Well, I worked w/ the boss lady today, and found that Next Tuesday we are having a big employee meeting.. the basis.. " No More "Well if so and so didn't do it I won't either" and was told that we might be an employee or so short afterwards.. No skin off my nose.. Fchking lazy ass people.. I work my ass off, and I don't do it for them. Anyhow, I feel much better.
Oh, and a couple of my favorite customers ( hubby and wife ) brought me some cake.. yeah cake. They thought enough of me to take the time to bring me food. So, sweet of them. Food is good now and again. I've had other customers bring me other stuff, soup , pies, offer of craw fish ( yumm ) , and each time It has truly and honestly brightened my day not to mention my outlook on the society at large.
So, next time you're out and visit someplace you always visit... bring some cookies for them, let them know they ARE appreciated.

So, G ( DH's BF dad ) is going to be released ( from life support ) tomorrow. Now BF is worried about how to afford the funeral/ burial. I can only hope that something comes their way soon. I know that so much is already on their shoulders.. and not only the past bills, but the future too. Keep them in your thoughts please.

DD is going on a field trip tomorrow, so MIL and I are taking her to look for her Banquet dress on Thursday, I only hope it doesn't cost me too much. However, If we loose an employee or two perhaps I'll have some extra money so I won't worry so much over that.. I will just enjoy being able to spend time with my Lovely DD.

Brightest of Blessing to you all ( Sister Mine )

Excited and Sad

It's a few hours later now, and I've gotten over my Pissed ( for the time being ) .. I cannot control any one's actions while I am not there to watch over them. If they choice not to do their job, and I'm not there... so be it.. I won't take the shit for their demise any longer. I will go in and do My work, My job as best I can. And until I am given the authority to reprimand, write up, and or fire someone... screw it, I'm not going to blow my health just for this menial job.. not when I can go else where.

I'm excited cause I work till 2 this afternoon, and DH and I ( if / when he gets home ) will spend some quality time together. Not to mention that tomorrow I am going to town w/ my MIL ( gotta love that woman ) and spending the day w/ her. Of course I do have to go to my Cardiologist for an INR check up, but that is no biggie. If DD doesn't have anything big at school (TAKS, tests.. what have you ) I might let her come w/ too. Either way, we'll go to lunch, I'll destress, and have a good day. Wednesday, I have to work mid shift, but that's okay since I'll be on the floor and out of sight from the "stupid" people who can't seem to do their jobs.

On the other hand, I'm sad.. DH's best friend's father is Brain Dead, and when he is taken from Life Support ( be it on his own or w/ help ) DH will be pall bearer at the funeral. I know that the day will be difficult for him as the man was like a second father to him. Whatever G needed, if his own son (the BF ) couldn't do DH did ( mechanically ).

I am not looking forward to the funeral, since I KNOW I'll be scheduled to work, but that's the way it falls for me... Sucks. Anyhow, I'll do my best to work around getting the time I need for it and for DH.


Until later Folks... Have a Blessed Day and Future yourselves.

Mondays Suck

Well according to me.. it was actually my Wednesday, but still Today Sucked.. Co-workers are Fcking lazy, and just because someone else didn't do does NOT mean they don't have to do it... Damn It, It Is Their Job to do it. Just do the Fucking work and everyone will be so much happier.. and to top it off, I am at the bottom of the management trail ( my choice since I stepped down from Assistant Manager ).. so since Schit flows down hill.. well I'm buried .
Anyhow, I feel so much better now that I'm home with my family.. and my heart has finally settled back to normal.. Breath In Breath Out. Breath In Breath Out. . In Out.. Okay, better.

I'm looking forward to tomorrow about 2:15, when second shift shows up and I'll be heading home.. Then I can pay my bill, check my mail, and go w/ Hubby (if he's home) to town and get some checks ordered. Maybe then I'll have gotten over this Pissed, and won't be thinking of quitting my job.

A Wineing begining at work

Well work went.. not quickly enough and not like I'd hoped. Instead of me on the floor I am on register having to baby sit the other two. That bites.. I'd just as soon do the work myself and be done w/ it and know it's done correctly and well. This week coming I have two days off .. split days.. but that's okay. I don't mind.. It's better than last weeks was, I had to work 7 days before I got another day off from the previous days I had. I know Bitch Bitch Wine Wine. At least this day is done. On to another one.
Until later.. have a great weekend and I'll chat at you another time.

My Monday

I know I know.. it's Friday for most of you.. however I just had two days off, so today is my Monday.
Yesterday finished off just fine.. DD got off from school so I took her to get her hair cut, a bit odd but she seems happy w/ it. Then after getting home and finishing supper DH and I walked around outside. We finish burning the pile of cuttings, walked the perimeter of the pond we are discussing ( a nice small pond in the upper corner of our prop. to put in perch and such to make use of the swamp area that is there), and checked out the garden. In the mean time we also got to see a baby blue jay fall from his nest, hop around, get dive bombed by a mocking bird, climb (you know what I mean ) his tree, and continue his flying lessens. All the time Momma and Daddy Blue jay were watching over him/her. I wish I'd of had the camera to take picture of it, but sry I didn't.

I don't know what days I'll be working as I go from week to week w/ different schedules. Sucks in a way, but at least most days I get to sleep in.. which I so enjoy. As for my stalker, No, not interested... I suppose he could be called good looking if he weren't so stalkerish... he comes to the counter I get his item and he stares, shakes his head, and calls me "So Beautiful".. *CHILLS*.. But I keep myself on my side of the counter when he comes in. Enough about that, I'm in hopes that since it's Friday I'll get to work on the floor ( away from the customers ) and won't have to be nice to anyone today. Besides time goes alot faster there when I work on the floor.

Other than that, not much else to tell. My DH's best friend's father is in the hospital again. He had gone to dialysis and for some reason just quit breathing.. they rushed him to an ICU unit and that is the last we've heard so far. I'm in hopes that he will get better, but I realistically doubt it. He will not come home for some time, if in fact ever. Keep him in your thought should you read this.

Have a wonderful day

OHG!!! Here It Comes Again.

Well here we go again.. my two days off have nearly passed me by.. once again. It's around noon, and it's actually not raining and the wind isn't blowing 90 mph like it has been. I thought I'd stop in and tell you about my day.
I slept in this morning as I am prone to do and then watched Failure to Launch.. cute movie.. I like the thought of Matthew McConaughey being tied up. Then went and paid my electric bill, and set up a hair appointment for my daughter. Strange Child. Got me a strawberry shake and came home to you. Oddly enough my DH hasn't come home like he usually does in the afternoon so I can only guess that work is actually doing something that will keep him there for the entire day. lol.
Yesterday I got up late .. as usual.. and played online for a while. Then DH came home and I watched and listened to it pore rain for the next couple of hours. Then, after considering killing my DH and resuming control of the Remote, I started laundry and decided to go to town and check mail and do some shopping. Yep you guessed it, I am a Housewife.. weird, I never thought in a million years I would be, however I like it.
My BFF Kari http://blog.dogwooddreams.com posted about me posting.. lol. It actually has been quite a long time since I've posted.. I have been working on getting my blog ( antiquated as it is ) back up and running. I probably won't post every day as I just don't have much to say about my day to day life.. other than bitching and moaning over work bullshit, and no one really want to hear that day after day. I could tell you about my stalker at work who comes to see me and tell me that I need to marry him if ( when according to him ) my "relationship" w/ my DH doesn't pan out. LOL like that's going to happen. cause I can tell you right now, If my DH dies or leaves me I 1) most likely will never marry again b) will never date a guy from here. Kinda like I never dated a guy from my own home town. Don't get me wrong.. I innocently flirt w/ a couple of the customers, however they are either happily married and are no threat or are quite a bit younger and don't take me seriously anyhow. Either way we all get a laugh and enjoy our experience at work and go home a bit happier. But the stalker, I don't flirt w/ him let get that straight.. I keep to my business and sell him the product that he asked for. No more, No less.

Okay, enough of that.. I think I'll fix me some lunch and go outside and enjoy the beautiful day, the sunshine ( making sun tea too ), and look over and feed my plants. Oh, and I forgot I have to start supper in a couple of hours too. Roast Beef, potatoes, I may even go get some carrots too.
For those that pass through and actually read now, have read, or will return.. have a wonderfulous day too.

A new Begining

Well, it's 4 something in the morning and I'm still awake.. damn bladder. Naw, can't blame my night wandering on that.. I just wish I had a book to read. I figure this is a good time as any to update my blogger and put it to use.
We moved into the home we lived in before we moved to Vegas.. so it seems we've come full circle. We figured we'd end up buying the place after DH's Grandmother passed away, I'm just glad that it's still here for us.
I'm doing okay... my heart beat is till wonkie but it doesn't seem to alarm anyone so I deal w/ it. I go in next Tuesday to get my INR checked again. Personally after 3 years of this you'd think they'd let me check in every 6 weeks at the clinic, and not at their "Comadin Clinic " where I get charged another $30. for 5 minutes worth of their time. I know that they are going to bitch about my weight, I've gained some in the last couple of months, but I think alot of it is water weight and will be seeing if they will allow me some water pills to help.. I know this cause I can see it in my ankles when I get off of work and take my socks off. I also know that I need to really lay off the pop tarts ( one a day ) and get back to my fruit thing.. I like a bit of fruits ( apples, bananas, and such ) to snack on throughout my work time.. helps keep me from the hot dogs ( which smell sooo good ). Also, will have to figure out something else besides water to drink at work.. our tasted funny today.. metally Blachh!!.
In the last two months I haven't been real crafty.. other than working on a scarf for a friend I haven't picked up any of my crochet hooks. Oh well, there will come a time to get it done and off to another project for me to ignore. I feel bad cause I seem to have put off answering a lot of emails and mails from loved ones. I know I shouldn't put them off but I still have hopes that Time will slow down enough that I can do it and not miss out on anything else.. I'm only 35 but I swear there are days I feel as it I were 70. So much to do so little time. I can't wait for work to be done and over for the day.. There's 8 hours and since I work evenings there's 8 or so hours after that so that's 16 to 18 hours wasted there. That leaves me 6 hours to do what I want to do... however realistically that's not even true since most of my time off I spend doing laundry, grocery shopping, paying the bills, cleaning house, visiting those I've ignored nearly too long. It's a vicious cycle I'm telling you.
Work still bugs me, since I stepped back from the Assistant Manager's position I feel that I've been shoved into a corner and been told to stay.. bad girl.. take your punishment. Well, I am now the pro verbally "babysitter" at work for those who are newer at work.. On top of doing my part of the job I also have to watch over, critique, and make sure they do their part of the work too. I seems to me that if you have a job to do... and hope to make the best of it.. you will do the work and do it well. However, that is not the case for many of my co workers. Nope, Not at all. Instead, I get to alienate myself even more and badger them to do it right, well, and in a timely fashion. I guess that's better than apologizing to my family about my job, giving up any chance at a normal home life. So, I'll quit bitching over that.

However I still have the same bitch... If You Live In America.. Learn the Fucking Language. Texas, New Mexico, Arizona and a few other states are NOT part of Mexico and do NOT belong to the Mexicans. Therefore They Need to Learn The American Language. And the First Two Phrases they need to be taught are : PLEASE and THANK YOU. I am so sick of foreigners coming in and telling me "Give ME". Fuck you and log you rode in on.. Unfortunately I cannot say this at work ( unless I want to loose my job ), So I bite my tongue and go on.

well, it's after 5 now, and I suppose I should get some rest.. I have the next two days off so I'll be paying bills, shopping for food, cleaning clothes and house. I wish you well.

Farewell Ms. Gladys

We buried Ms. Gladys three days ago, she was my husband's step grandmother. Ms. Gladys' son is even married to his mother on top of Ms. Gladys having been married to my husband's Grandfather. So, needless to say she has been a very big part of my DH's life. She was the Matriarch of the family, a community servant for over 40 yrs as a nurse. The great loved her, the most respected her, and the doctors and her patiens feared her. lol . She will be missed.
She once told me of my own Grandda, who died when I was only a baby, and how she would nurse him when he would come in the back door of the hospital for treatments. She told me that he didn't want any one's pitty of his cancer so he would come in the back so no one would know.
She left with us her one remaining son Harold (a wonderful man who is married to my MIL), his children, the children of her deseased daughter, her Step children Paul Elbert (my FIL) Patsy and Marie, and all the Grandchildren and Great Grands of them all. She has been a Great Grandmother to our daughter Kayla for all the years that she has been.
Her funeral, a sad occation, was a great turnout of the families and the community that she served and loved for so many years. It was the only time I have ever seen my husband shed a tear, but then again it was his Grandmother's funeral.
Would you believe it was his first funeral ever, where as I have gone to more than 15 in my life ?

Two weeks after Rita

Yesterday Kayla and I went out on our 4 wheeler to take some pictures of the neighborhood. You'll see the Grainery Compand and the Lumberyard both only a copy houses from us, and a house just a couple streets away.

Hurrican Rita

It has been a week since I started back to work, and many days it has been difficult not to cry. I have not seen the community come together as tightly as it has. I have seen the National Guard, Coast Guard, Red Cross, and others hand out help on t.v. , but never thought I'd be one of the ones in line for food, water, and ice, but have been now. It is a very humbling experiance for us, especially since taking is a difficult thing for me to do when I know I can never repay the kindness given.
In the days following Rita it has seemed a dream, the Military, the Disaster organizations such as FEMA and Red Cross, and our town's people ( even me and Kayla ) pulling to help the community in our time of need. At work it is difficult not to cry, seeing our towns people try to take care of the Men and Women who are here to help us, them paying for thier drinks, snacks, and offering warm showers and what they can for the kindness they have shown us.
As a child I have lived with out electricity, done with out hot water, and survived without watching television. But now, after all the years of Air Conditioning, Computers, and Television... I had forgotten that there other ways. I am no longer a youth, nor do I have the resilantsy that comes with it, however I know that I can still survive without electricty and all that comes with it. I can still make tea w/ a perculator, make dinner over a flame, and be comfortable doing so.
It has been nearly two weeks now, and today I had a Whopper for lunch... the first since, and it tasted AMAZING !! Today, I got my first day off since last Wednesday when my store opened back up. Even the owner of the company lent a helping hand and directed traffic in our parking lot/ pump stations. He even made sure that those of us who hadn't a home, had a place to stay during all of this. two of my co workers lost their home, and two other couldn't go there homes because of the surrounding damage.
The school had some roof damage to the luch building, and the Winnie Community Building took all the food from there to cook ( and keep from wasting away ) for those of us who needed a good meal. Kayla starts back to school tomorrow, and we all look forward to a bit of normalcy.

Rita's Tantrum

Here are just a few pictures of what Rita did while we ran for cover. They were taken just two days after she hit our small town. The pictures are of the local lumberyarn (which is only a few houses down from my house), our Sonic , which half of the awning is gone and alot of damage to the main building; all the in the third picture is from the roof off the building to the left, a block away, and last is David Self Ford Dealership, they were smart enough to have moved all of the merchandise out of town to a safer location.

First Shrug

Well, I completed my very first shrug for my daughter, and although she loved the colour she didn't care for the bulkyness of the back. I used a pattern from http://www.craftyarncouncil.com/projects/mar99_crochet.html
and for my first try it was very easy, however I plan on reworking the pattern to suite my daughter and hopefully make one she likes and will wear. Don't get me wrong.. it turned out great, just not to her liking. She wants one that connect in the front like a regular bolaro jacket.
I used Red Heart Giant multicolour ( I seem to use alot of that lol ) in the color of 4040 Cabana Print double yarn w/ a P hook. I look forward to making more.
Next on my "family" list is a hat/scarf set for my niece in her school colors of green and gold.

Birthday Gift Set

Since I have been making hat/scarf sets these last couple of weeks I desided to make one for my daughter's friend who is having a birthday party/sleepover this weekend.
The hat is made from Faith's Justin's gone Fishing Hat Pattern http://crochetingcookspatterns.blogspot.com/2005/07/justins-gone-fishin-hat.html in Red Heart's Sunshine Print and Bright Yellow , both are worsted weight, and the scarf is just Red Heart's Sunshine Print done in the basic dc till it was long enough. AS you can see both are quite bright and should match w/ the Birthday Girl's personality very well.

Mother/Daughter curly scarves

Both Scarves are made from a sport weight yarn called Blue Pomp (Red Heart) http://www.fuzzygalore.biz/patterns/spiral.shtml is the pattern for the Daughter's curly sarf and the pattern for the Mother's can be found here : http://www.coloredjules.com.au/oscommerce_australia/product_info.php?cPath=32_24&products_id=153&osCsid=cecb1a5cd97f849ab0f36510bdc4e357

Both were fun to do, and I plan on making them a Christmas gift for one of my Sister in Laws and her daughter.

Go RED

Only 16 more days until the Go Red HeartLine call in event!
This is a reminder to mark your calendars to call the
Go Red HeartLine at 1-877-GO RED 05!
Go Red HeartLine

What: Call the toll-free Go Red HeartLine to speak to a knowledgeable registered nurse about your heart disease questions. Discuss your personal risks for women’s No. 1 killer and what you and your doctor can do to help prevent this disease.

When: Saturday, September 24, 2005, 10 a.m. to 4 p.m.

Where: Call toll-free 1-877-GO-RED-05

Cost: None! This event is free-of-charge

Why: All women are at risk for heart disease; the good news is, you can reduce your risk. Learn how.

The Go Red HeartLine is offered by the American Heart Association’s Go Red For Women movement, nationally sponsored by Macy’s and Pfizer. The 2005 Go Red HeartLine is made possible by SHPS’ CareWise Nurse Line with support from PacifiCare Health Systems.Thank you for your support of the American Heart Association and Go Red For Women!

http://www.americanheart.org/presenter.jhtml?identifier=3017091

check it out

Re-Life Day

A year ago today, I woke up to someone telling me to cough...

They had removed the breathing tube from my throat, I had survived the open heart surgery. Next was to survive sitting up, more painful than one may think at that point. I was in a room full of others who had also had some form of OHS, and they too had to cough and sit up. I recall my Mother In Law there to encourage me, while my husband and daughter waited to see me. Other than fighting to sit up, fighting against the pain of breathing (the movement of my chest hurt) and the fact that so quickly after the surgery I had to do anything, I recall very little of the day.
Most of the people got moved to the 8th (or was it the 9th ) floor where most of the DeBakey Heart patiences were I do not remember, but know that I spent the next two weeks there. I fought tooth and nail to get released, just so I could go outside, go off the floor, get away from the heavy heart monitor. I finally to got go home (well my MIL's) where she gave me my Lovanox shots and hooked me up to my IV bags (antibiotics ), and made sure I was taken care of.
A week later we went back to Houston, and I was put back into the hospital. I was slowing drowning... My lungs were filling up, and no - one suspected until my cardiologist took and examed me. According to the doctors, once my heart sac was broke the area reacted badly to the gloves that were used during surgery (happens quite often), and the fluid just gradually built up until I could hardly breath or talk at the same time.
So, After 4 days of Heprin They removed 13,000 cc of fluid from my lungs. And believe you me, that is a lot of fluid for an area that should be getting oxygen.
The day that I was released, and felt much much better, and have been feeling stronger, and better than I have in many many years. I did not know that I could have so much energy.
Now, I take my blood thinners every day, and thank the Gods and Goddesses that I have been granted a renewed life. So, I say Happy Re-Life Day to me.

Great Uncle Jim Betts

Last night my mom called to tell me that my Great Uncle had passed away on Friday. I was sad for the Family. I know I had met my G. U. but that has been many years. The last time I can think of ever having seen him, was when Great Grandad Betts had passed, and Momma and I went to Salina for the funeral. But then I was a young teen, and other than my Grandma, and some cousins my age; little held my attention. No, not to say I didn't know; I cried my eyes out for the man who would give me all his one dollar bills when ever I visited him ( he just lived across the field from my Grandparents). I loved him dearly.
Any how, back to the subject at hand, I would like to post about his passing, and hope that others out there do not forget about your Great Uncles and Aunts, as they are your loved ones too.
James Gene “Jim” Betts
James Gene “Jim” Betts, 76, Salina, died Friday, Aug. 26, 2005.
Mr. Betts was born April 13, 1929, in Salina, the son of the late Philip Frank Betts and Mabel Zada (Laferre) Green. He attended Washington High School in Salina. He served in the U.S. Navy as a seaman second class in World War II and served in the U.S. Army as a corporal in the Korean War. He retired as owner/operator of ACE Sanitary Service in Salina and had been working as a rural postal carrier. He was a member of the Veterans of Foreign Wars Post 1432 and attended the Emmanuel Christian Center in Salina. He was an avid stamp collector.
He married the former Shirley Ann Copeland on Aug. 2, 1957, in Ellsworth.
Survivors include his wife, Shirley; three daughters, Shayla Gibbs and husband Curtis, Geneann Gordon and husband Greg T. and Dawn Carlson and husband Frank, all of Salina; two sons, Monty and wife Linda of Salina and Kevin of Wichita; a sister, Phyllis Austin and husband Ralph of Mauston, Wis.; a brother, Donald Philip and wife Etta of Salina; two half brothers, Michael Betts of Salina and Terence “Terry” Betts and wife Josephine of Tracy, Calif.; 15 grandchildren; and eight great-grandchildren.
The funeral will be at 10:30 a.m. Tuesday at Emmanuel Christian Center, Salina, Pastor Loren Houltberg officiating. Burial will be in Highland Cemetery, New Cambria.
Memorials may be made to Emmanuel Christian Center Food Fund, 1325 Cloud, Salina.
Visitation will be from 1 to 5 p.m. Monday at Carlson-Ford-Geisendorf Funeral Home, 500 S. Ohio, Salina 67401.
Condolences may be sent to www.carlsonford.com.

EEEEwwww!!! Blog SPAM !!!

YUCK!! I touched one.. Bleah .. *washed hands*... You would think that people would know better than to spam blogs, I mean don't we get enough of that crap from our emails and snail mail boxes ? lara873lisa sent me my first one.. and after the second, Sis (Kari) told me how to get rid of them..
I never thought about that #^#&^ %$*^@(_ #@ showing up on blogs, let alone MINE !!
Well, I've fixed you lara873lisa and others of your ilke, you can't get to me anymore. Hopefully you can't get to many more. If you read this make sure your blog is Spam Free, go to settings.. then to the comment section, and you'll see where to turn it "on".
It is a shame that we have to do crap like that, anoying others, to make a living.... but have some pride Do Something Useful.

"Frankenstien Doily"

Posting Sis's newest FO for her since her ISP is being a POS hehe
You can edit and remove this or add the link to the pattern or whatever Sis. Love ya!






Pic is clickable


Thanks Kari.. you're the Greatest. I just wanted to say that I was following the pattern for the Vintage Spider Web Doily : http://crochet.about.com/library/weekly/aa103099.htm and after row 10 this is what I read to do... lol. In the end I created my Frankenstien Doily.

Back to School...Monday..Again..

So tell me, what happened to waiting till after Labor Day Weekend to start school... not that I am complaining.. just curious. Is is because the children are no longer needed in the fields that we just don't wait any longer? Who Knows
As another school season begins so do the preditors ... so if by chance you stop by and have not looked.. here is a web site you as concerned parents / adults / teachers should look over. Don't leave it up to others to do for you what you should do yourself. http://www.stopsexoffenders.com/statelistings.shtml Have a look.. even small towns are susseptible. You might learn something that will save yours or another's child grief and pain.
Hell of a subject, but I love my child enought to do the research. I have even go so far as to go through the site w/ K (she is 12 now) and she understands that these people are NOT to be trusted.
As you can see she has a very ecclectic sense of color, taste, and clothing. I Love that she is secure in enough in her own skin that other people's harshness cannot touch her. Just as I have done my best to teach her that she has to respect other people's opinions... as they maynot be her's but to the others' it is just as important.
Hope the site catches your eye and you take a look at your school, hometown as see what dangers may lurk there for you and yours.